i feel so fucking alone here.
Interview tomorrow at Petsmart. Trying my best not to let my nerves get the best of me
Sometimes I feel like a failure
Melatonin isn’t cutting it any more. So exhausted, so depressed, so ready to run away.
5 more applications filled out
Yay? May end up working customer service from home at this rate…
Searching for a job when you’ve not worked for 11 years is frustrating… Even more frustrating that I can only work nights and weekends because child care is too effing expensive around here.
Are the hardest because there’s no distractions. Children are asleep and he’s in the basement ignoring me as usual. I have so much to do and I am not prepared for any of it.
I feel the overwhelming need to talk to someone but I dunno which of my friends are awake. And I don’t want to bother anyone. So I guess I will just lay here and cuddle with the bunny who seems rather happy to be covered in a soft blanket with me.
Sometimes I just want to scream
But it wouldn’t make things better.
Not at all.
Getting drunk and playing World of Warcraft.
Apparently not so much lol He froze and stared at the wall while eavesdropping on their conversation lol I probably would have done the same thing except I would have at least tried to take a ‘casual selfie’ :p
My husband’s friend just shared an elevator with Sir Patrick Stewart and William Fucking Shatner.
So I went to the doctor today. Turns out the joint pain was caused by a pinched or compressed nerve. He popped a couple of things (no really sure what) and the joint pain disappeared. I then got a lovely electric stem therapy treatment and some muscle relaxers. Kinda sad I have to wait until bedtime to take them though. The muscles in my leg still flipping hurt but I’ll take that over joint pain any day.
In so much pain, I want to cry. Seriously wanted to avoid going to my primary care doctor but I guess I’ll be making an appointment cause this pain fucking sucks.